Life happens when you aren't looking. For me it's usually when I'm frowning or worrying...walking around squinting, trying to make my view be the view I envisioned. Then, something will happen, a cosmicly ordinary event that makes me look up, wide eyed & see my surroundings. These days my wide eyed surroundings are beautiful. I married the only guy on the planet for me on a gorgeous beach in Jamaica surrounded by our near & dear. That event was the perfect "squinting/wide eyed" example. I walked around the week before biting my nails over every little detail & how things should be happening while my friends lived it up on a ship bound for Jamaica. No amount of squinting though could've made that day, that place, those people...the experience any more perfect. By the time my step-dad (Calvin) walked me down the aisle to my teary eyed groom...I was wide eyed to say the least. Life has continued on in the same way. We decided to buy a house. While I squinted & over thought every one of them, Mike just "went to see what's out there." And when he found the house we ended up buying & KNEW it was the right one, luckily I looked up at my husband & let go of all my control freak habits...& just went with it. And it's beautifully perfect. All my squinting comes from living a "half glass empty" kinda life. I've always waited for the worst. Prepared for the negative. Tip-toed over the cracks. Well...I have a reason now more than ever to change all that. To see the beauty. To laugh easily. To be a little more naive. My reason for change stems from not wanting the sweet baby growing in my stomach to live a glass half empty, squinting, kind of life. Whoever he or she is...I want them to live wide eyed. My blog is my accountability to begin the change. I have 7 months to become a Mom who teaches her child to embrace every good thing, great or small and walk past the ugly. To smile and look around at her world wide eyed, and only squint when it gets too bright to take in.